A mans point of view-emotions

A mans point of view

what i believe well actually know some myths about what a man is.
Men do not cry-well i certainly cry and i never thought i would write this,but a relly good friend of mine whos work i admire hugely asked if i would,so for some who know my dogmatic,determine,apparant unruffled style/character you are in for a huge shock.
I cried over my Daughter who lives with her mam in scotland when she was one year old and her mam decided to end our relationship and move in with one of my best friends.
Was it fair that i had to leave just because i was the man.
Prior to this we lost a child a baby boy through an etopic pregnancy again i cried and somehow shoulderd the blame from my partner and her family in scotland,although with hindsight i know i could not do any thing at all to change it.But i was the man and my partner had lost our baby and not me so i should just be strong,which i was but i cried and grieved in private and i have never felt so alone,guilty and unloved in all my life.
Please note men have hearts and souls and we grieve,cry and have to put on a different face in public and try to convince your partner that everything is going to be ok even though you are dying slowly on the inside.
I have cried the usual tears at funerals etc but that apparantly is ok for a man to have emotions there but even then with the death of my grandmother i had friends and other family members saying things like this is not like you mike,to be so upset etc.
ITHINK OF MYSELF AS STRONG BUT I WANTED TO SCREAM TO THE WORLD I AM A MAN BUT I AM HUMAN,I HURT,I FEEL AND I CRY BUT PRIVEATLY.
I have cried when my step daughter was in and out of prison for assaults and even trying to kill me,so many tears not for myself but of guilt that i felt for my step daughter spending 30 months out of a 36 month period in and out of prison and i could do nothing to stop it .
TEARS of frustration and tears of sometimes feeling failure but i kept fighting for her and after 3 years got her a full assesment and it was found she had borderline personality disorder and sectioned,i cried tears of joy at this.
But in the 18 months in a mental health hospitals there have been many many more tears over her suicide attempts and now because i am a man her illness has made accusations against me,but this is not from her but from the borderline.
More tears not because of the accusations of violence but because my family are stating you really can not love her or have anything to do with her now.
She will kill you or you will be in prison,i would not hurt her but i am a man and men are not supposed to be victims of domestic violence,men would not put up with it and females are not strong enough to beat a man up.
Reality check not all men hit females under any circumstances and i am one of those men,a wimp-never but a man who feels and hurts and really does cry a lot.
so for now that is it but one thing is certain i will have more pain and so many tears all beit in private.
BUT MEN DO CRY AND FEEL EMOTIONS JUST LIKE FEMALES DO

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